eye remember
suffering

eye remember
... feeling the sting

of childhood
& injections

holy bruises
sweet infections

soaked
in
a
stew
like drowning
cockroaches

whose only ..
crime

was the
greed of
inherent
hunger

u know where
eye'm fragile

u know how
to kill

........kill

all fall away
all fall today

PAIN!!
pain.

i can't keep
this rage in me

can't keep
pretending

can't be
this emtee

...anymore

i can
make
it go away

... make it go away

Yesterday I had to go to the Dentist.. Whoopie! I really didn't feel like going because I was having a rough day but whatever. When I went into the waiting room Tasha and Amber came in. I talked to them for a few minutes, then they left me. I had to get one filling. I thought it would be more than one. It hurt a bit when they cleaned it but other then then that it was fine.

This morning I went to the Gartland's house to work at their farm. I worked there last year and they wanted me to go back. It was better then last year for some reason, I was there from 9:30 AM to 3:00 PM. I have a bit of a sun burn on my face, and sunburns ALL over my legs that are very painful.  A while after I got home Grammie called me. She wanted me to stay the night because Evan was there. I didn't want to stay the night so I just went for a visit. I went to my cousins house for a swim. There pool was fucking freezing so I was only swimming for 15 minutes. After the movie we were bored so we watched Brother Bear. It was good for a Disney movie. Abbey's friend Racheal was there. She kept trying to cuddle with me which was disturbing. She knows that I like guys! After the movie my grandmother drove me home. Then.. I talked to Rick on the phone, and went to bed.

I've been pretty busy lately. I'm working everyday this week. BAH.. John (my boss) wants me to work at his farm on Monday so I said yes. It's hard work but whatever. I worked there last year. Yesterday I went to Jonathan's house. We watched the  movie May. I LOVE IT SO MUCH! It's about a girl who has no friends so she kills people and sews their body parts into a doll that she calls friend. GO WATCH IT! Well we talked on the phone with Damein for a couple hours. I didn't get to sleep until almost 7:00 AM! I work up and the alarm clock said 10 to 11:00 AM. I was freaking out because I had to be to work by 11! It turns out that the clock was an hour off.. Wow 2 and a half hours of sleep! Well Mom and me stopped in at my Grandparents house to get fish or something. My Uncle showed up with my cousin Evan. (He lives in Alberta, I haven't seen him for  a year) I didn't really talk to him. Then I went to work. Work was slow and boring. I stayed until 5:00 PM. When I got home I immediatly had to go to my Grandparents house for dinner. It was scrumpsius. Now im at home..